Help

I need help, help because I’m nowhere and help because I’m a fu*$ing mess and have no idea how to take care of myself, I need help because in my years of being alive I’ve managed to accomplish just about nothing, I need help because the only thing saving me is a book, a 378 paged story that is different for every person but for me its about being what’s keeping me balanced. And I know a book is a small, stupid thing to keep your whole life balanced on, but it’s the only thing that makes sense to me. I need help not only because of the book thing but also, I need help because my family is dysfunctional and all the while I am smiling, I am smiling at the fact that things might get better that I might have a shot at redemption, because I feel empty, an empty hole that needs to be filled with whatever to get me to hang on a little longer, but I still lie down starring at my ceiling feeling, awake... but not in an “awake” kind of way... in a sad empty kind of way.

I Saw You

I saw you today
But no, oh no, there’s no way
I heard your voice through the trees
Giving me my wants and needs

Yes, I saw you today
But no, oh no, there’s no way
I see your soul in purple flowers
I try to hear you every hour

With everyday bearing cloudy skies
I can almost look into your eyes
Indeed, I saw you today
But no, oh no, there’s no way

As the leaves fall to the ground
I feel your movements all around
Bent blind and about to break
You are here make no mistake

You are my back rest and my life support
You are always near when I come up short
I thought I saw you today
But no, oh no, because you passed away

I’m fine

“Are you alright?”
I mean, not really. Actually, no, not at all. I have this ache in my chest. You left me an empty feeling. My eyes are red from the burning tears. My head overflows with thoughts of you, and memories of us. I really can’t take it, because you broke me. You left me in a million pieces.
“I’m fine.”

Airsoft

To be honest, airsoft is just amazing. When you are getting shot at, and you have a split second to think of what you’re doing—the rush is amazing. During thanksgiving break, my family and I bought at least seven hundred dollars worth of airsoft guns. On the last day before we left New Mexico, my cousin and dad were about five feet away with guns that shot four hundred feet per second...

At five feet apart with guns that shoot that far, the outcome wasn’t too good. My cousin got shot in the throat  and the arm. He got shot so close up that his neck started to bleed, his arm just has big welts on it.

I got a seventy dollar gun, and it was amazing! It was a fully automatic, assault rifle with a shotgun attached to the end of the barrel. The shotgun had such a big spring in it, that it shot almost four hundred feet per second!

When it comes to airsoft, you need batteries. My cousin had an 11.2 volt battery which made it shoot so much faster. My cousin had just charged his battery for twelve and a half hours. When you charge a gun for that long, it starts to sound like a real gun. That is the one reason I loved having him on my team. Once I get a job, I am going to save up my money and get a professional airsoft gun. If it’s professional, it’s extremely expensive. A very good gun that lasts is about five hundred-two thousand dollars. That’s a lot of money for a gun that shoots plastic. Though it is very reliable on the field....

Airsoft is a “sport” that I hope to keep doing for many years to come.

Orange hippo throws a party

In the village, Not Village there was this one orange hippo who wanted to throw a party. In his head he thought party = hot girls and fun, but mostly hot girls. In order to get the girls, he needs to get supplies  to make the biggest and baddest party in Not Village. When he got to the store for supplies , he got knives, drinks, and lights. He also went to his friend’s house to get Fried chicken injected with watermelon Kool-Aid, his favorite food.

 Then he sent out a message to everyone in Not village saying party at 8 to until you’re bored. As time went on tons and tons of people came, almost the whole population of 402.

 There was hot girls. Everyone was having fun, and then Bean, the orange hippo who threw the party, talked to the hottest of the hot girls. He said, “Hey wassup I was wondering  if your parents are terrorists because you’re the bomb,”. She was like, “Nah nah nah man my parents are dead screw you”. She pulled out a shotgun and shot his arm off and both his legs then told him, “Next time think of a better pick up line”. Then the hottest of the hot girls shot him one last time to finish him. After that the girl was like, “I’m done with all these guys.” From the kitchen, Someone heard a loud noise that sounded like a gun shot, so he headed Towards the living room where he heard the gunshot and saw.

The

    End

Orange hippo in space

There once was a village far far away in the solar system of Not village. It had orange hippo these orange things had a nice life it mainly consisted of getting with hot girls but who doesn’t like that. Now one of the orange hippos will share there view on life. Dang I’m in space I have nice cars and a nice house but where are my hot hippos. As he thought why he doesn’t have a hot hippo one of the hottest ask him if he had any sugar, he said no but I got a number. He said if you take the number I’ll buy you sugar. She said ok. So as he went to go get the sugar he saw another really hot space hippo he asked for her number she got mad and slapped him to another galaxy.

Moving

I hate moving because you have to pack your bags and leave behind memories. I think parents hate it when they have a 4-year-old, and they have to go through all their toys.  It’s a lot of work when you are moving from a different state, because you have to wait for all your stuff to be sent to you. You also have to get rid of furniture, because it would take forever for you to drive all your stuff to a new state. You also have to help move stuff when you’re my age. That’s why I hate moving.

The Future of Thanos

"You punny mortals can’t defeat me. I am a god, and you freaks aren’t!” Thanos bellowed. “You really want to test that theory,” Thor roared. All of a sudden the Tesseract, Aether, the Orb, and the soul stone flew into Thanos’ iron glove! Then, like a cloaked fist, the world went dark… 

“Sweet Jesus, that guy packs a punch!” said The Falcon. “Yes I do, you pathetic crap heads! I am from the moon Titan, and our warriors are the strongest. Even stronger that you circus freaks!” Thanos told him. All of a sudden, Thanos went underground...

Thanos

Fire away

With the war at its peak one man finds light in the darkness... His name~ Bucky Barnes...

“Ready...Aim...Fire...”. Those were the last words I heard before I went on my own and defied my leaders to stop a war... I am Bucky Barnes and I will fire my wrath upon my enemies...

The war will end by my hand. I know that now. The war that a jerk started and framed me for causing. The war happened because of Hydra... I will end it for the avengers for I am an avenger... I will fight when I come out of the ice... I will fight Thanos, the bringer of death, to death itself...

Orange Hippipitimases Part 2

 The village of Not Village just had their couples baby’s head chopped off. After that, they ate the head. Then all the guys started getting with the hottest girl hippipitimases, but this one guy found someone he thought would be his soulmate.

But he was too shy to talk to her.

He asked this other guy to ask her out for him.  Then he was, “Like grow a pair and do it yourself.” That made him want to show him he could do it, so he did. He asked her out and right after he did she said, “Sure why not?”   As they did more and more together, she started not talking to him, because she wanted to be with her friends. He was like ok maybe she just wanted some time to be with her friends, but that wasn’t the case. She just forgot about him☹️☹️.

This made him really sad. She was the only one who cared about him-but no… She didn’t care about him, so he wanted to kill himself. So he went home got a shotgun. Shot himself, and his brains shot everywhere. The End.

A Hazardous Lifestyle

Do you ever get the feeling someone is watching you? It is uncontrollable, but you just want it to stop. It is a sickening feeling to think, and perhaps know, that somebody is watching every step you take, and every dumb decision you make. Whenever you get this feeling, your heart starts beating 10 times faster, as if someone is approaching you. You might even imagine shadows circling you, and no matter how warm it is, you still get cold. It is difficult to eliminate that feeling, when it could unfortunately be life changing.

Warriors

The war is here… Nothing can stop it... Nothing.

I am a warrior. Same with the rest of the world... I will fight to the end to end this pain that I travel with and it will end this war and pain. I am Bucky Barnes, and I am a warrior...

When Sam and Steve helped me escape from the Black Panther, the pain kept on coming into the center of my heart. I knew that I needed to find a way to control it but I didn’t know how to. I asked what was going on because I was mind controlled by some jack ass and couldn’t think straight. I just knew this... I caused a civil war and nothing could stop it... Nothing.

The war is n

Why School?

Why as a society do we send kids to school everyday to learn math, english, and science? Why do we teach kids things that they most likely won't use in their daily lives, we won't use the periodic table in everyday life. Most jobs in the 21st century are things like salesman, waiter, and average jobs like that, that don't need to use 90% of the things we are learning. Why don't we send our kids to trade school to learn plumbing and construction skills, that in 2017 are extremely well paying and in high demand. How about having active learning and get out of the classroom instead of sitting in your chair for a hour-and a half. The way I see it is the schools that we go to are wasting our time and i do not think that is right.

Traveling

If I could go anywhere in the world, do you know where it would be? I'd say that I would want to go to Bora Bora. It's a small South Pacific island that is fairly close to Tahiti in French Polynesia. The turquoise blue water glistens in the sea—practically transparent.....


Not only are there beautiful beaches, almost everywhere you look,  amazing rock formations of all different shapes and sizes capture a tourist's imagination.  Based on the pictures and descriptions that I found on Bora Bora, it reminds me of a place that I went to when I was younger called Phi Phi island in Thailand. If I could ever got to Bora Bora, I'm sure I would enjoy every moment.

Plus, it doesn't hurt that the name is fun to say!!

Leave a comment about where you would want to go to if you could....

I’m Sorry

I’m so sorry for the pain. Pain travels with me no matter where I go. I want to control this but it seems impossible for me to do this… I will control this but time will tell when. I will stop this though… I can guarantee that for now... This pain will end… The war is near… It will end then...

My tears

My tears stick to my numb face. Snowflakes fall in every direction around my being, which feels so small compared to the rest of the world. Every step I take, my feet slide across the frosty glaze that has covered the lifeless ground. 

My vision has been blurred by the pain that takes the form of salty tears-to the point where I just stop looking at the dark bleak road. All I can do is think. Which is the last thing I want to do, because all I can do is think of you. I think about how badly I want you with me right now right here, holding me, keeping me warm, telling me everything's ok. I think about why you left me "I thought we were in love" slips out of my dry, frozen mouth. I can almost see my wistful sentence travel up into the freezing grey sky, dotted with   blurry white specs.

 All the dreams I had of our future together seemed so strong, but were shattered so easily. Everything I knew splintered into a million, useless fragments floating around my head mocking how ignorant and clueless I was.

 The temperature seems to rapidly continue to drop, one more degree for every agonizing remembrance of you. Thinking of all of the time we spent together how every second was extraordinary, how every second made my stomach fall into a black whole where reason and worry didn't exist. How when I was holding your warm, broad, olive hands I would turn into a completely different individual.

 I wipe my tears from my soft, frozen cheeks that with the touch of my small, simple touch, gain a drop of life. I begin to whimper into the distance sprinkled with deceased, narrow, black trees as tears begin to fall faster towards the river, the flows in a perfect line beneath the ancient, timeless bridge. Snow is starting to slow as the winds begin to race through my long hair and across face my legs begin to shake as my heat rushes out of them. I start to move towards the middle of the bridge unsure of anything at this point. I suddenly and without and any warning fall to the steady ground compact in a layer of fragile but strong ice. I stare at the road dusted with snow and dirt, but all I can see are your golden eyes. I began to cry even louder almost as loud as I laughed when I was with you... To be continued